I started doing something recently that scared me. I led worship at church.
I’ve been part of this for a while as a guitarist or a drummer. I think I first played acoustic guitar with the worship team back when I was like 12.
But I hadn’t led worship with the singing part. I did that for the first time a couple months ago when Poppy was out of town. I’ve shared songs most weeks since then too.
Here’s the switch that got me to do it.
Before I started leading worship, I worried that I wouldn’t hit the right notes or remember all the lyrics. That kept me from doing it at all. Really, though, it’s more important to do what God says to do than feel like I’m doing it well. Like, I’m not a good singer. I’m not even a great guitar player. But if God wants me to lead worship, I ought to do that, even if it means people finding out I’m pretty bad at singing or playing guitar.
Of course, it’s one thing to think that, or say it or write it. It’s another to step out and act on it, to actually live like that, like actually turn on the microphone and sing into it.
But that’s what I’m trying to do.
I’m still scared every time I try to lead worship at church. I’m still not a good singer. I’m just doing it anyway.
In the back of my mind, I’m also hoping it will be enough of an example to remind people around me to do the same thing, even if – especially if – they’re scared too.
