Never ready until I begin

Every morning during the working week, I walk into my office without a clue of what I’m going to do in class that day. An A+ teacher would prep at least a day or two in advance. Not me. I don’t have time, and I refuse to work outside of work.

So every morning, I walk into my office without a clue what to do for class and begin to prep for that day. It’s my way of time boxing, procrastinating my way into working more efficiently.

Even still, about halfway through the prep time, I always find I haven’t made much progress. Sometimes, I start to worry at that point. Most of the time, though, I just keep plodding ahead, knowing it’s normal for me.

Because somehow, just minutes before class starts, I realize I’ve finished the planning and am ready to begin yet again. It always surprises me that I feel ready, but it’s always like this, day after day. I’m never ready until I begin.

And even then, it’s more like, “Are you ready?”

“No, but let’s go!”