Well, I’m still alive. It’s that my computer isn’t.
It was showing signs of old age, or more like a full life, but it finally conked out, of course, right as the Journaling John experiment took off.
I still kept at the experiment, mostly, by writing it down on paper. I haven’t had a chance to key it into a computer yet.
A lot’s happened over the past few months, but I haven’t written about it. I used to write every day. Now that my computer is down, I haven’t written in weeks. I’d like to get back to it.
Here, at least. Because I have been writing some, just in other places.
I got a job at a security company called Sonitrol of Louisville. I’ve been doing some blogging for them and helping with their web profiles. I enjoyed it. I need to write about that.
I was also working on that little book I promised like 10 years ago. The trouble with that now is that the newest copy is still on that dead computer of mine. I’m still working on how I’m going to get that back. I’m hoping to get that published online here soon. By soon, though, I guess I mean within the next few months.
Nothing feels completely soon right now.
Originally, I thought I’d call the book A Brief Guide To gods. I’ve changed the title since then. I’m going to keep the new name a surprise for now. Maybe that’ll help motivate me to get it written so you can see what it’s called.
Anyway, that’s all for now.
Reading through the gospel of John, one chapter a day, sharing the most memorable part each day, finishing as the month of June finishes. Go.
Come and see, follow me – John 1
Throughout this first chapter, people keep asking Jesus where he’s going. Meanwhile, Jesus keeps asking people to follow him. No one seems to know where Jesus is headed, not even him.
I don’t think that’s the point. Or even if it is, Jesus isn’t about to focus on that. Instead, I like that he just asks the guys to follow him, to come and see where he’s going or staying. He doesn’t make it all complicated or even difficult. Yet.
I guess when it does get difficult, at least he goes first.
That’s what I remember.
Something I’m learning is that whatever I do, even once, trains myself to do that.
When I hit the snooze button the first time, I’m training myself to not get up when the alarm goes off. When I buy a large Coke and guzzle it down in the car, I’m training myself to drink junk.
Now, I’ve known for a while how important the first step can be in moving toward positive skills or completing tasks. The first step, taking that first step, is often the hardest hurdle to clear. From there, all other things equal, the process becomes easier and easier.
If I want to write, for instance, starting is the hard part. Starting enough times, though, makes it easier to start next time. That’s why it’s fairly easy for me now to write on Marshallogue, even though I was scared of it when I first began publishing online. This side of the equation – the positive (good) side – I’ve known (even if I don’t always remember it or follow through with it all the time).
The side I’m just now learning is the negative side. I’m just now learning how important it is to avoid doing the negative things even once, like hitting the snooze button or buying that Coke or whatever. In the past, I guess I’d assumed that as long as my primary habits stayed positive, the one off slips – hitting the snooze once, buying the Coke – wouldn’t matter so much. In reality, though, the one off slips train me, each time, to do those things.
Every action reinforces that action for later. Every action trains me to repeat it. So next time, it’s a little harder not to do it again.